Today I envisioned where I’d like to take my blog in the future. When I began blogging it was all very anonymous and I never showed my face or used my real name. But as time went on that changed. Over the past few years I’ve included pictures of myself all over my blog and I use my name on social media instead of a nickname.
But as I’m getting older and I’m figuring out the sort of content I want to write about I’m realising that I don’t want to use pictures of myself as much. Firstly because I kind of miss the anonymity I once had and secondly because I don’t actually need people to see an array of images of me. When writing about The myth of not knowing or Expectations and disappointment a photo of me isn’t really necessary.
I think it’s pretty interesting because I decided to start showing what I looked like as a way to share more of myself with my readers and because I felt as though I was hiding away. I’m now at a point where my readers know me (or can get to know me) through my writing style and I don’t feel the need to be seen as much.
So you can expect less of my face in the future, you may have noticed I’ve already started implementing this.
My blog has always been a space for me to use my voice to talk about life, things that interest me and the things that I care about. Over time I’ve focused more and more on writing about life. The majority of my content is musings on daily life, sharing things I’ve learnt or am currently learning. As much as I enjoy writing about all that life stuff, there is a part of me that wants write about other things too. I also want to write about books, personal style, being creative, places and occasionally products.
I’ve always struggled with creating niche content because I like to blog about the things that mean something too me. That can vary from a self-help book on confidence to a cleanser that makes me feel amazing every time I use it. I understand that the variation in my content probably doesn’t help in terms of growth but I’m not yet ready to make a choice.
I guess creating a separate blog where I can share more lifestyle based content is something that I need to consider. For now I’m going to experiment a little here and see how it goes implementing a little more variation into the content of this blog.
It’s always nice to have something to look forward to, no matter how small. If you don’t have anything to look forward to, then make a plan. Don’t allow money to be a limitation, work with what you have. It can be something as small as coffee with an old friend or something outside you’re comfort zone like spending the day in a new city solo.
Having something to look forward to makes me a happier person. Making little plans every now and then is a great way to not let life just pass you by. I never want to be stuck in the habit of always putting things off because time is precious.
I thought I’d end today’s post with the first verse of a poem by Robert Herrick:
Gather ye rosebuds while ye may,
Old Time is still a-flying;
And this same flower that smiles today
To-morrow will be dying.
When I was younger I had this vision in me head of what I thought I wanted in life. I thought that having x, y or z would bring me a greater sense of contentment. But as I got older I often found that when I got many of the things I wanted, I didn’t actually want them anymore.
When you’re growing up your life ideals can end up being heavily influenced by the people around you. Whether it’s people telling you what you should want or you looking at what other people have as a benchmark for your own life.
Over time, I’ve learnt to focus more on me and what I want because it’s no good having everything that others think you should have or aiming to have the same things in life as someone else. It’ll just make you miserable.
Let go of expectations and image. Focus on yourself. Create your own life ideals, aim for self-fulfillment.
The older I get the more I see the value in doing things that are outside of my comfort zone. I used to have so much fear around doing certain things alone that I ended up missing out on many of the things that I was interested in. This resulted in my fears growing further and further becoming much scarier than the reality.
Even though I haven’t blogged for the past 15 days I’ve still been writing. It has been absolutely amazing. I’ve written poetry, a bit of fiction, general life stuff and also edited through some pieces from the past couple months.
So as the weekend comes to a close I thought I’d reflect on the past week. I’ve been feeling a little down for the past couple of days but I haven’t been able to pin-point the cause. I feel like it might just be a build up of stress which I’ve never been great at dealing with so I thought maybe I should find an outlet. I’m not sure what exactly my new outlet will be but I’m thinking something totally new to me like tai chi.
At the start of the week I had a big think about my life and what I plan to do with it. It can be difficult when you feel like the choices you have made were mistakes but I guess it’s never too late to fix them. From a young age I always felt this pressure to get everything right so whenever I did make a mistake it was frustrating and I wasn’t always good at taking control and doing what was right for me. However I’m older now and as they say ‘with age comes wisdom’ and I’ve learned (the hard way) that I have to do what is best for me, even if it seems scary.
I’ve blogged everyday this week as a little challenge that I set for myself since I’ve been slacking on content for quite some time. I didn’t find it too difficult but it won’t become a permanent thing. However it made me realise that I can easily do 3 posts a week minimum so that’s what will be happening from now on.
Another thing is I had this idea to write a blog post on motivation but instead of making it all about ME, I have decided that I want to make it about people that I know. My plan is to ask a handful of people a set of questions and then somehow find a way to collate the information into a highly intriguing masterpiece. I have a few people in mind that I want to help me with my research and honestly I’m just so excited to get started. There is one specific person that I want to ask but I’m not sure if he’ll be willing to participate but hopefully I can convince him.
All in all the past week has been okay. I’m feeling much better today than I was yesterday and I’m feeling major good vibes for this coming week. Also I have some nice things planned alongside my assignments, reading and research but you know, it is all about the balance.